What it looks like: You're completely new to the sport. You can't get on top of the water without assistance.
What you're working on: Standing up on one ski in deepwater starts in a balanced stance that allows proactive and reactive movement, as well as following the boat around in turns.
What you should do next: Buy a wide-bodied ski, which will make deepwater starts easier. Practice equal weight distribution on the balls of your feet as you develop your stance.